09-08-05 3:00 am Eastern

My very spirit awakes me often in the middle of the night.
Offering solutions, resolutions or inspirations left and right.
It is compelling this kind of life to lead
as long as I am flexible with time, and sleep.

Ah, never mind. Here I am again, awake and wondering why I get these ideas in my sleep and I wonder if I am trying to connect to something that I want to unlock within myself. There are inspirations here that ride the waves of my heart but often they don't rise to the top of my awareness. It seems that takes more time, as if the awake time somehow helps it come to the surface but not until I've slept some more again and then It just "comes through"
A lifetime of experience is one thing to start with, for inspiration. Then there are current experiences; they seem to often defy description. They are great to explore because many more people will be experiencing this very energy and might be thinking - am I going crazy - what's up with this head and body I've called home? They won't be alone, as many are feeling "home" like they have never felt it before! As if some of the human race is awakening from a deep slumber.

I will therefore use this early morning time to call forward those parts of myself that I currently need - those parts of my personality that can add to this experience and provide the spring into this new realm I enter. This place of inspired thought and poetic freedom. I sense that my writing inspirations and the many turns of events in my life of late are interrelated. And because it seems the highest and best use of my intuitive and empathic abilities it makes sense to me that they are coming forward and ideas begin to flow like water to me. The stories to tell!

6:30 am, after another bit of sleep and helping my partner off to work.

Temperature: 15C (58F) Barometer 102 and steady
Raining and cloudy Winds northerly at 9 km/h

Okay, there is something here. What is this energy I have? A curiosity, a desire to communicate with words; some "thing" I'm not yet even sure of. And yet I am compelled to explore it - let me see if I can explain.
What I explore is almost like learning how to operate in the world around me with a whole new set of senses and a very different perspective as to what the "world around me is". And I find it very interesting to follow what I am inspired to do - and I still struggle some days with trusting it and yet - it works still even then...

These are very basic things in most people's eyes but it is funny when I realize despite it's simpleness many people would have difficulty accepting that as a comfortable way to "be" for themselves. 

Example: yesterday I had 2 small windows of opportunity to water the garden. Other things, activities, seemed to take up both allotted watering times (re: watering restrictions to conserve our watersheds) and while I felt a sense of frustration with this I realized - Ah well - go with the flow! And now, this morning - a healthy soaking rain is falling. Even the birds are hushed in the wet darkness, dawn will be a little late this morning!

Such is as it should be, all is well in the garden and obviously the synchronicities work a beautiful dance for my benefit and the benefit of the garden.  Rainwater is always better than tap water, and a bit of lightening adds nitrogen to the mix and gives the earth a natural dose of fertilizer.

I've talked with others, experiencing life in similar ways and we attempt to describe these things to each other - Happy accidents - magic - living in tune with nature and loving the very earth with all your heart. She loves and nutures back - Mother Nature, some call her Gaiamma, she truly cares for all her many beings - animal, mineral, vegetable - right down to the micro-scopic and beyond. She works directly in concert with all beings if they accept their "response ability" in respecting her needs and the needs of her inhabitants - all inhabitants - she can then sustain an abundance far beyond our current experiences.

Truly we would provide the environment for a "heaven" on earth, a garden of Eden, even a new New Orleans, with bounty and abundance and healthy living for all.

Without interference from those that would disrespect her, the Earth, who is far more than the sum of her parts, will joyfully and abundantly provide for her self and her many inhabitants.
She would exist, then, in joyful abandon - which is how she wishes we would live, and knows we could if we would only try.
Harken her lesson and do not forsake those who seem less than yourself in some way. Instead ensure all have dignity and the safety of home and community.
Have respect for the earth and her peoples and her fish and other wildlife, her minerals and her air - stop considering that living beings and the earth are somehow expendable.
Be respectful... allow the earth to heal herself and help if you can in some way.
Visit a park or garden, if you don't have one and just allow yourself to remember how much that feels good to you. The vision, the colours, the birds and the fragrances. The peace and tranquility.
Take a drive in the country and do the same, even a walk, barefoot, on the sand or some grass would help your very soul re-connect to this primal, real self you actually are.

Well that is the life I am learning to live. I am driven daily to this experience and reminded more and more often of just how natural and important it is that I do so. To another it still may seem ludicrous for the simplicity of it can't make sense to the scientific, mathematical, logical mind...

Perhaps it is time we recognize that the large portion of the brain we thought we weren't using is actually the most important - that the 'sub-conscious" is far more useful and active and life supporting than all the other portions and senses - not living in a world of "survival" anymore the senses of sight, sound and such are needed to get around but to be safe, we do not need to fear for one's life.

Perhaps these musings, someday , will lead to planting seeds in other people's minds about their own lifestyles and what brings them joy and how to learn to step into a divine connection with their very soul. The natural part of oneself that each one has shunned for thousands of generations. Walk in the garden and help yourself remember you are an important part of the world in which we all live. So is your neighbor, your employer and the check out person at the grocery store. Give each other the space to Be themselves, truly, and the world around you can bloom for you in beautiful and miraculous ways.